My private/personal time

Hum, everyone has their own unique 'quiet' time. The time when they recharge/reorganize/review or simply 'meditate'. For me personally, i have 2 special types 'quiet' or personal time daily. Simply says that, I preferred not to be disturbed at these times.

First type will be after shower(usually morning & night lah), where i will took some time for relaxing/planning/reorganize myself while dressing up. That why i still @ always go to my ex-bachelor room/workstation upstairs during & after shower. (hope that my BH will understand of why i don't 'transfer' all my clothings downstairs to the 'married' room) . Perhaps i still miss my bachelor room hehe.

Another type will be lunch hour(particular during weekdays), where most of the time I will ate alone. Don't pity me for I don't have any eating partner thought, as i preferred it that way. Yup...perhaps i'm a 'freak' or introvert type of personality hehe. As long as nobody ajak makan, I will be fine by myself. Anyway, it's a perfect timing to ease my mind & reorganize myself after the 1st half of total working hours. Sometime, works can be tiring, so it can also be adjusted from lunch break to 'cat-nap'. I loving it...

Getting bored.

Being almost a year now "standby" & doing the some maintainance works at Setapak project. Miss the old days of active work activities, such as running, jumping, climbing, shouting & troubleshooting from here to there. It's not that i like to work 'hard', but for a long period of inactivity or 'honeymoon on work-site', my whole body system tend to slow down, a.k.a lazy. Darn, putting on weight too, previously from 55 kg to 70 kg. If remained unchecked, this can lead a bad lifestyle in long run (will lost the 'handsome' figure & also promote unwanted terminal sickness).... extremely need some motivation here to 'recharge' my life. Hum, what can it be?

Ps... perhaps i'm on holiday mood now hehe - 2 more weeks to go before i off to The land Below The Wind.

Ps...What on site today, Architect came for periodically defect inspection for block D. Apart from that, TNB's subcontractor came for repairing works at damaged block E's underground cabling.

What can i do without you?

3 days already being abstained from drinking coffee for evening 'dose' (Common practice, without fail, i will drank with minimum twice a day - once in the morning (6.30am) & once in the evening ( between 3-5pm) )..why am i suddenly abstained from drinking coffee? Definitely not because of health problem issue or something. It just that i don't hot water & coffee making materials in mini office recently hehe. Yup, so what if i'm a cheapskate, not worth of spending money at local 'mamak' stall if i can brew it myself. Hope to get mini boiler soon.

Hum, talking about the side effects of lacked caffeine in my system. Firstly, I'm not very active at night as before, where i used to watch news or movies till 11pm or doing some studies or research. Secondly, getting 'piss-off' easily(must admit that my brain is not functioning very well). Then, have a slight headache/migrain today! For 'coffehollic' people like me, i used to it already (the side effect). I'm addicted to it, & i hope to find a simple way or solution for 'detoxification'.

Getting myself OTC?

Perhaps being thinking too much (or nervous?)...Being forgetful or absent minded lately... today was 'locking' myself out from my own bedroom as i forget to bring along my entrance key & electronic key card when heading out for work. 2 days ago, almost left my HP at the same room. Even my 'never leave home without it' multi-tool penknife is not spared last Friday!

In worse case scenario, i simply can be 'lost in mind' till i took the wrong heading to a destination where i frequently travel....

*OTC - Otak Tak Centre

Getting stress up...

It's aways a life concept for me to follow this golden rule: "Suffer(or work hard) first, happy(or freedom) later". Well, it being 2 years of resources (money) preparation...2 years of mental training...2 years of 'life changing' planning. Finally it almost come to an end. Am i ready to face the real 'married' life. Personally, resources is really getting on my nerve!! All the saving & planning prove to be not enough. In fact, after quite some time, my personal Stress-O-Meter given out warning sign already (will talk further on this).

The wedding preparation is really taking a toll in term of my financial planning. It started well in term of finance& planning. We had planned & agreed upon to have a simple wedding ceremony & receptions, but unfortunately, it end up 'grand' instead. Yup, peoples said, it just a matter of 'one time' thingy. Please la, this is our big day that you guys talking & gamble about. (IMHO, it's not a good long term investment too), I prefer spending our money according to our own mean. It's not that i won't spent much on it, but rather allocate those money for the honeymoon 0r holiday. I want to have extra cash on honeymoon with my BH, i want to have extra cash to save on stock or investments, & i want to have extra cash for my future child's education, etc. Sadly, all the reserved 'honeymoon' money had being used up for the 'overspent' or rather 'extra' incur marriage preparation. Hopefully that i don't have a 'sour face' throughout my wedding day.

Bottom line is... i don't want to have this type of mentality "Jolly-jolly first, & suffer(or pay up) later!"

I just love school holiday!!

Thank God, it's finally a school holiday season...hehe, not that I'm on leave or got something to do with school activities, simply love the smooth traffic flow in the morning. No stress, no rush & can safe up to 10% fuel intake.

I not a 'dedicated' driver.

At certain time, i just don't really like to drive a car - particularly at hot & sunny noon!! Can get very moody when someone asked me to go here & there without my 'own freewill'. It's not that i won't obliged, but i prefer the journey to be pre-planned & timed properly - to save resources ma (time, energy & petrol especially).

No turning back now.

Am i really ready to be someone's husband & father soon? This thoughts always 'playing' in my mind as tomorrow will be the ultimate 'judgement day' hehe. Perasaan gembira ada, perasaan takut pun ada. Perasaan tak yakin pada dir sendiri juga timbul. Hum, perhap that i afraid of letting anybody down or simply cannot affort to meet my BH's or family's expectations. Whatever it is, it's a major walkthrough & critical life decision-making for me. Nothing can change my mind now. In good or bad, in rich or poor, in good health or the opposite...i'm gonna be a better man. In God we trust.

P/S - Thanks for all the supports & courage from my BH, family & friends - who make my world a better place to live in. It's a long road, when you're on your own.....

Burned out?

After the 6 days of long hours work & commutes, I deserve a ‘holiday’ or being plain ‘lazy’ at home. In fact, Sunday will be always being my laziest day hehe. Prefer not going outing, shopping or even doing house chores….Wake-up late & being a ‘couch potato’ is the best option for me now.

Looking forward for a long vacation thought. For record, I had saved/reserved all my 16 days annual leave allocations for this holiday cum honeymoon (18 Dec 2006 – 3 Jan 2007). Even during Public holidays, I had volunteer to work or ‘standby’ in order to get the ‘replacement’ leaves.

Hope that my 1 year of “Susah Dahulu, Senang Kemudian” will be paid off with wonderful & memorable holidays.

To be or not to be.

It not easy for me to open up myself towards people surround me. Used to be cheerful or 'happy go lucky' type of guy. Until a few incidents that my close & trusted friends started 'eating' me up or took advantage of my agape kindness till i barely defend myself. Life has to go on, now opt to a quiet & simple type of guy, never really like to mix or mingle around with people or places anymore. Felt safer at home, doing & study stuffs or hobby alone.